Life is about making decision...And this year, i know i have to make plenty of important decision that will affect my entire life, more or less...Truth is, i am not a good decision maker...It took me hours just to decide which what to buy especially when my budget is limited. I have to ask my sisters, friends which what they will choose and if their decision is contrast with mine, my head will start spinning again...I will ask justification of their decision. After that i will think hard whether to stick with my previous decision or go with the others decision. Most of the time i will choose the one that majority agree on. Worst case is when i don't think i can make up my mind, i decide not buy any of that.
HOWEVER.....
Recently, i'm making a decision that i'm certain about without crack my head so much. Even i know clearly this one decision of mine will caused a major changes in my life. But this time around, i want to take charge of my decision. By letting my heart do the maths rather than my slow brain. I'm taking that 1st step to complete one from many purpose of life. I always dream about how my life would end up when the time finally comes. Every life have their own cycle of life and i am in the middle phase of it.
WHAT AM I BUBBLING ABOUT???......
Definitely...THE M.A.R.R.Y things!!
I'm hardly thought about getting marry. The idea just occur sometimes when i attend my family and friends weddings, becoming their bridesmaid, giving hands during the occasions or when i babbysitting my chaotic nieces and adorable nephew...I always wonder when will i holds my own childs. Just heard them sharing their pregnancy experiences gives me those excitement feeling...
And of course the idea always occur when i am in love, especially now that i found my soulmate. He's not just my lover but my friend and brother. He always make me feel safe and make me believe that we can and there's a way to make our dreams come true,don't just sit and dreams...but to live your dreams...
We encounter so many obstacles in our relationships, uncountable arguments, shouting and tears. But he hardly give up and always find ways to make our relationship work. We adapt to each other preferences pretty well too! That is why i believe he is the one for me...
By realizing all those criteria that make him my Mr Right and believe it is destiny that bring us together(The story of how we meet is all about coincidentally), i am entrusted my life to him.
***I supposed to post this on early February.But of course, i lost the track while busy juggling with chaotic episodes of my life and failed to find time to post it on time.T_T
